17/02, cny eve
went to wen li lou to have our reunion dinner. (w dad's side)
1 yr met them once only. so ended up, i actually mixed up my cousins' name. i called desmond, darren. and i didn't realise even thou desmond gave me this weird look until carol called him desmond. :/

first time lao yu sheng. haha! other than e raw fish, nth's nice. nth.

this year's main character, liyang! :D
poor thing but its not abuse. totally for his own good. he's TOO active.
he just learnt how to walk. yet, he's starting to run, practically everywhere anywhere. every sec he's moving. serious.

he dont know when to stop. if u carry him for more than 10 secs, he will start to struggle then his head will face towards e flr. hinting to u he wants to go down.

took lots of liyang's photo :D

he loves to play & touch anything.

siao siao, he knows which button to hang up e call or ans e call.

he didn't wants to leave e driver seat.

18/02, cny (chu yi)

me w mom.

dad went to fetch liyang & family. when i board e car, e first thing i saw was tht big blue back bump on his forehead. he got it tht morning. run arnd at home and fell.

he was actually wearing a bear costume. but when he saw himself in e mirror. he shy. then don't know how, he kept drooling. end up, e bear costume was soaked w his saliva. damn funny. so got to make do w just a tee & pants.

reach 2nd uncle's hse. put him down. thot since its indoors, so don't need e dog-like thingy, then he started running arnd agn exploring. then... tadang! ran, fell, head knocked agnst e wall at the same spot.

see tht bump. freaking big & red.

trying to pacify him w food.

those tears.

darren & desmond

me & darren

me & desmond & ba gua. ahahah! (he's in secondary 1. yet, his height is 154. mine: 153 -_-)

haven got e pic i took w carol & cheryl.

aft uploading all e pics, i realise i didnt take photo w my dad.

its been really a long time since Huang family took a pic tgether.

went to my dad's ex-classmate's hse. her dog reminds me of yumi.

tht night went home, found out tht e woman who took my dog away actually lives below me.

19/02, cny (chu er)

went to ba po's hse.

her parrot damn beautiful.

then to my mom's side.

me: ma mi, wei se me mei you ren gei wo hong bao?

ma mi: ying wei ah gong hai mei you si san nian, cannot give hong bao.

me: you zhe zhong shi de meh?

ma mi: bu dong

bro: you.

me: ................

so means, for e nxt two years! i cant get hong bao frm my mother's side!

its a freaking two years!

went home, went to e woman's hse to find yumi.
my dad's right. im too naive.
she really deny everything. what can i do. nth.
so what if all e descriptions fit in nicely. she deny it!
my dad's always right. i can never find yumi ever agn.

cny sucks. other than taking hong baos, and meeting up w some of your lovable cousins everything sucks.
cny is e only time i felt like & was really torn into 2 pieces.
im not sun wu kong. i cant replicate myself. even though i really hope i could.

i hate to be a woman.
emotional & sentimental.
i want to be like my bro.
w tht cool/emotionless face even though his heart's also in a mess.
unlike him, i chose to hide my face.

tht gentleness u gave her 24/7
i can nvr have it.
because of her, u waited for us patiently.
i'd rather u call us and scold e hell out of us even though its cny.
because of her, u listened.
& bring us to another her.

its all an irony.totally.


i'd run, if only i've e courage.
i'd jump, if only i've e courage.
i'd..,
i'd.....,
only if i've e courage.
perphaps e cut wasnt deep enough.




my soul's deeply grieved.
to be strong. its tiring.
tht smile, how long can it last.
all i need now is to sleep.

On bended knees, Lord, I cry to Thee,
To thy cross I flee.